Might as well as start here of all places. A fresh start is what I believed I need, but not so much anymore. Our perceptions are all different, I finally understand that now and as such I believe its about time to change my own. It's all been a dreamy blur lately but I've finally been able to talk to somebody who can explain to me my habits and hopefully how to change them. To not put up my walls, to let myself feel emotions, to not ignore the problems occurring right within my house. I want to change, I want to feel but I also don't want to let go. Even now this is hard to write because I'm so used to being alone on the inside.

Pull On new skin Like borrowed gloves
And burn your fingers once again?
What bullshit. This is what I've been living to for the past couple years and I'm only starting to see the pain that I've been inflicting on myself by ignoring the past, blindly walking through the future and faking the present.

It all starts with a single step, and I'm thinking that this will be the first of many.